Monday, October 17, 2011
conflict
With mortality on my mind, the immediate thoughts are:
Then the conflicting thoughts see-sawing between
Life is short. I'm going to have Laksa with extra hum for lunch
vs
I need to be alive and be healthy longer, for my kids and E.
I need to exercise more and stay healthy
vs
I need to spend more time with my family and close friends
Choices. choices.
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.
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Confession: I did have laksa for lunch.
Resolution:
- my parents are older than the business associate who passed away, and gosh~ they are really getting on age,
- how old my kids will be when I am say, 60 when I go, all 3 will be in their 20s. Way younger than I am now, and too young to lose a parent, (luckily we have insurance in place so they will be financially secured, oh wait, we need to do up a will and appoint legal guardian) and
- gosh~ I don't know how I will ever survive if and when I lose E. He may fare better if I go first...
Then the conflicting thoughts see-sawing between
Life is short. I'm going to have Laksa with extra hum for lunch
vs
I need to be alive and be healthy longer, for my kids and E.
I need to exercise more and stay healthy
vs
I need to spend more time with my family and close friends
Choices. choices.
.
.
.
.
.
Confession: I did have laksa for lunch.
Resolution:
- I will work my ass off so that I will not need to OT and get home earlier.
- Then it will be 20min on the elliptical machine tonight.
Labels: to Despair
# posted by yojanjan : 10/17/2011 02:17:00 PM
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