Wednesday, August 03, 2005
waiting part 2
i've given up. not the waiting, that's inevitable, but the agreement to wait.
best to not arrange to meet at such and such a time at such and such a place. then i dont have to endure the waiting, the worrying when it is late, the worries of being at a dark loney place, being tired, wondering whether to call, the delays after postponement after delays, and what will come and greet me at the end of it.
i'm tired, i'm disappointed, and i'm wary of trusting again. no more. not another time. i can't pick up the pieces another time. the stakes too high to play another round. no thanks. i quit.
best to not arrange to meet at such and such a time at such and such a place. then i dont have to endure the waiting, the worrying when it is late, the worries of being at a dark loney place, being tired, wondering whether to call, the delays after postponement after delays, and what will come and greet me at the end of it.
i'm tired, i'm disappointed, and i'm wary of trusting again. no more. not another time. i can't pick up the pieces another time. the stakes too high to play another round. no thanks. i quit.
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# posted by yojanjan : 8/03/2005 01:03:00 AM
